Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Trust.

Trust. Sometimes we wonder about how much we trust God. Or how much trust we are willing to put in God. It is easy to say, I trust God, when everything is going well in life, the challenge is when things seem out of control. When you can doing nothing but wait, waiting with a desperate hope that this God you pledged your life to is as faithful as He says He is. Sometimes its in those moments of intense desperation that we get to really see how much we actually trust God. Its in the moments of tense pressure and the opportunity to worry that we see if we have really invested in our relationship with God. The past few days have been a time of stress for me, climaxing with finding out today that what I had thought was a minor eye infection on Sunday turned out to be an extreme infection in one of my eyes. The infection has the potential to permanently damage my eye. (even to the point of blindness.)  So the question is swirling in my mind, am I going to trust God and rest in the peace of knowing he is in control, or do go into self-pity and worry.
I was crying out to God last night, asking Him to move, to intervene, and make the pain stop. It was in that moment of intense prayer, when I felt so helpless that God spoke, in a quiet voice. "I'm right here. and I've got you." It was then that God began to just tell me gently "I'm here, David, and I've been here the entire time. I'm gonna walk through this with you." From that moment on God has given me peace and trust, trust that is struggling to be like Jesus's trust when He said:   "My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done." Matthew 26:42. Trusting God goes beyond simple saying "I believe you can heal me." it goes to saying even if I don't get healed I will praise God and trust that he has a plan through everything. I could lose my vision, but if my heart trusts God in a way I couldn't possibly do with vision in my eye, than I think it would be worth it. Its that trusting in God that Jesus showed in the climax of all possible human suffering. If I could have but a fraction of that trust I know that I could see God move in impossible ways in my life. I know God can completely heal me. And I want Him to, but there is a strange peace in knowing that God will be moving whether He heals it or not. 
     So prayer would be appreciated in these next 24 hours. I am going to the eye doctor again tomorrow which could be the deciding moment of whether the damage is permanent or not. So I'd love as much prayer as I can get, not just that God would heal me but that I would trust in Him no matter what the outcome 


Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Consecration


How much do we desire God? Enough to hunger after him day and night? To search with all our heart until we find just a glimpse of Him?

So often I feel like we as Christians down play desiring God. We are all about spending time with Him, reading the Bible, and praying, but do we really desire God? Do we constantly seek after Him with a passion that goes beyond any feeling or emotion? Do we love Him enough to sacrifice anything simply so we can dwell in His presence?

God has been speaking to me a lot over the past few months about having a hunger for Him. A hunger that will drive me past the times when I don't feel like seeking Him. A hunger that will drive me to do impossible things simply because I desire God and His presence that much.

So how do we get that hunger? How do we desire God with a passion that surpasses our feelings and will? For me, it came down to getting rid of the distractions. I think that everyone secretly has this desire to know God. Because we were created in the image of God and God designed us to be in a relationship with Him.

Consecration.

To set ourselves apart.

I think hunger for God increases when we set aside the distractions and empty pleasures of this world. It comes when we lay everything aside and say “God all I want is You”. The words carry a weight when they are followed by the action. God honors those who lay everything down to follow Him.

This past week God has really been speaking to me about consecration in my life. I think a lot of times its the small ways of consecrating ourselves that make the biggest impact. Its when we say “God, I'm not going to listen to that music, not because it is bad in itself but because it doesn't do anything to draw me closer to you.”

It's sounds crazy.

Over religious and probably a little legalistic.

But think about it, what if we decided to really try and fill ourselves up with only good things. Not “ok” things or “not that bad” of things but strictly what brings: life, joy, peace, love, and ultimately draws us closer to Fathers presence.

What could God do with a people completely free of the ties and hooks of this world and devoted only to Himself. A people who were willing to say no to the pleasures of this life so they can enjoy the crazy pleasure of God's great presence.

It's hard, but there is a strange satisfaction in knowing that we are no longer a slave to something but free to seek God completely.

Just something to think about.  

Friday, July 13, 2012

Soccer and Sacrifice


Sweat streams down my face as I try once again to steal the ball. “this is hopeless...” the thought streams through my head as I watch the ball go flying into the goal. 

Soccer is not my sport. 

Unfortunately for me, it's the common sport of most of the world, including Egypt. 

On Tuesday we had the privilege to play soccer with some teens and men at a boys orphanage. 
The field was about a third of the size of a real soccer field and all the boys play everyday, so for someone who never plays soccer it was a bit of a challenge. But a total reminder of why I am here. 

I'm not here to look good or even make a good impression; I'm here to love the people. Sometimes loving someone means doing the thing that they love, even if you don't like it.

 For me playing soccer is like that. Don't get me wrong, I like playing sports, but being a tad competitive, its tough to be totally outplayed and miserably outmatched. 

So the question always comes down to, am I willing to lay down my rights? Am I willing to sacrifice a small part of my reputation, image, and dignity in order to really take the time to love people? 

The fact is, this world isn't about me. Shocking I know, but how often do I really make it about me. I don't feel like looking like a fool so I won't do it. I don't want to spend the energy so I'll just sit back a let someone else do it. Its comfortable and totally selfish. 

Love=Sacrifice

Until we take the time to sacrifice and serve we will never be able to truly love people. God, who is love, came to earth as a sacrifice for us and as a servant (Mark 10:45), not because he needed to do it to love but because we needed it to know how to love, to know what love really is.


Tuesday, July 10, 2012

From the rock to the desert

The constant beeping of horns and persistent heat added to the dreamy feeling as I looked at the city pass by.  "What am I doing here?" the question pounded through my mind as I struggled to keep something resembling a good attitude. Day one of outreach and already I felt burned out.

      Our traveling begun on Sunday, July 1, when my team left Kona HI and started the three day journey to Cairo Egypt. It was one of the longest trips I've been on, over thirty hours of traveling. On the positive side we got to spend eleven hours in Munich Germany, which was such an amazing blessing! (Got to have some of that awesome German Coffee!) That helped to break the trip up a little but by early Wednesday morning  when we finally arrived in Cairo, we were exhausted. I had slept for about three hours on the whole trip. So after collapsing into bed and thanking God for AC in the bedrooms, I slept for twelve hours straight.

      So lets just say that waking up in an extremely hot foreign country does not help with the confusion of a groggy mind. I woke up on Wednesday more confused then I think I ever had been. I knew where I was but had no idea what time it was. Having no clock meant that I spent about fifteen minutes stumbling around our apartment trying to find the time (which when I did find I assumed had to be wrong because there was no way I had just slept an entire day away.) The clock said 5:15, whether that was am or pm I couldn't tell and since I was the only one up I had no one to ask. Finally after about 20 minutes of trying to figure it out (including getting on google to google the time in Cairo Egypt) I finally came to the conclusion that I had been asleep for twelve hours. and it was in fact 5:15pm.

     Now to top off the jet lagged, sleep deprived state I was in, I had also been getting a cold the last few days of traveling. This cold decided to rear its nasty head as soon as I woke up after having been asleep for twelve hours. All together it is safe to say I was not exactly in the best mental/physical state. After about an hour, once everyone was up, we met with one of our translators to go over a few things. Once we had talked a few minutes we all went for a walk to see some of the city.

     Cairo is probably one of the most bland cities when it come to architecture, almost all the building are plain concrete and look almost exactly alike. The streets are littered with trash and full of cars. Now all this being said the people here are amazing and extremely hospitable. One of the things our team has to get used to is the constant staring, for me this isn't a huge deal but I feel for the girls on our team who have to deal with the stare down of every guy we pass.

     So as we walked through the streets of Cairo our first night I struggled to take it all in, the crazy traffic, the beautiful yet very strange language, and the constant staring of everyone we passed by. After walking for about a half hour we got some awesome fruit drinks at one of the local shops. Our leader, Paul, then went into one of the other local shops to buy a cell phone for our team. While the rest of our team waited outside, I stood silently a few feet away, thankful for a moment to rest and let my mind process all the strange sites. Suddenly I see an Egyptian man walk up and offer a high five, I, not knowing a bit of arabic or the culture return the high five. What follows is a series of high fives and fist pumps followed by the man simply walking away without saying a word. I must have looked quite confused and bewildered since a pair of young egyptian men standing near by laughed and said in broken english "egyptian fun", that is all the explanation I got.

     On Thursday we spent the day getting some much needed rest and going over what we would be doing while we are here. I'm so thankful for the apartment we have here, the bedrooms and living room have AC and the kitchen is super nice. It is such a blessing to be able to come home to a restful place like this. My team was able to just spend some quality time with each other on Thursday and just get our bearings on our new life here.

    The following is a small glimpse into what Friday morning looked like.

    The van jostled through the busy streets as my congested head continued to pound and tired eyes stared out the window. "So this is Cairo." I thought as the buildings swarmed passed and the cars drove madly down the streets. Honna, our driver, drove the van care freely through "light" Friday traffic on our way to Garbage City. My first impression of Garbage city was simply that it was exactly what I heard and expected it to be. A city trash dump thrown on top of part of the city. It was literally a city full of garbage; garbage on the streets, garbage on the buildings, garbage everywhere. As I looked out the window I watched trucks caring sacks full of garbage weave down the crowded narrow streets. One of the first sites I see is a decapitated dog rotting by the road on top of a pile of garbage. "people live here, and walk these streets every day." I think as I watch children running down the streets. A cart with donkeys rests beside the road as men collect garbage in large sacks. For the first time since getting to Egypt I was thankful for a cold so that at least my plugged up nose blocked out some of the smell. Still the smell of garbage was ever present and I was thankful when our van made its way higher up in the city.

     At the top of a hill sat one of (if not the) largest Coptic churches in Cairo. It is in fact a cave church, basically a church built inside a massive cave. This particular cave church could seat fifteen thousand people. It was interesting to see the massive structure and the orthodox feeling of the church. Paintings and carvings cut into the walls depicted Christ, the virgin Mary, and other significant figures of the Bible and coptic Church. Having never seen eastern orthodox churches before the closest thing I could relate it to would be a Catholic Cathedral.

      After getting a tour of the Cathedral we spent time talking with the different Coptic Christians outside of
the church. While Coptic Christians would call themselves Christians most of them believe in salvation by works and their religion is very much based on doing good deeds to get to heaven. It was interesting to hear their different beliefs. After talking for a couple hours with some of them we then hopped back into the van and headed home.

     It was on this ride home that the discouragement really set in. During our time of talking with the Coptics we had split into two groups. My group ended up talking mostly about politics with a few Egyptians there, which was interesting but didn't really result in anything meaningful or significant. Thankfully the other group had more success and were able to encourage the people they talked to and share some of their thoughts on Christianity. So it was on this drive back, where I felt the discouragement set in. My cold had zapped all my strength and the heat had dealt an equal blow of weariness. It was in this moment that I began to wonder what my purpose for being here was. It was then that the taunt came. "Did you really expect to just walk in and change this city? Did you really expect there to be no fight, for there to be no hardship? Did you think that a few hours of prayer could tackle centuries of darkness? That a small group of people could change a city full of strongholds? Do you really think you are strong enough for this?

     It was a challenge, a question of how resolved I was to stick it through and continue to seek the Father's face. Living here won't be easy, I don't want it to be easy; I need to continue to rely on the Father for the strength to continue and pour out His love on the people here. And nothing that Satan does can withstand the love the father has lavished upon His people.

     So here is a small taste of my first few days here. I'm so honoured to by in this amazing city. It is cool to see God move in amazing ways. Thank you all for your prayer and support. It means the world to me! I love you all and will try to keep you updated on what is happening here!
Blessings,
David

Monday, July 2, 2012

the beginning of a new adventure

     I watched sleepily as yet another van pulled out and took its passengers to a new set of adventures. Another set of goodbyes had been said and the all too common sadness of knowing that good friends were gone for a time. I walked back to the room to collapse into my bed until the next goodbye.
    Wednesday and Thursday were tough. Five of the eight DTS teams left those two days meaning most of my school is now gone. The worst part was that each goodbye lasted about an hour and for someone who hates goodbyes to begin with it was quite the traumatizing experience. (okay that may be slightly dramatic but you get the idea.) For three days we hung around the very empty base, wishing we were on airplanes instead of a tropical paradise. It didn't help that on Thursday we went through a refugee style line to pick up all the food we would have to eat for the next three days. That paper sack full of food didn't quite make it to Sunday. :) 
     On the bright side, those last few days were an awesome time of refocusing for me. The last three months have not just changed my life but also have changed me. Lecture phase was an incredible time of just focusing on God and receiving from Him. One of the biggest revelations for me was just the grace of God. Not just in receiving salvation but receiving anything from God starts with undeniable grace. I used to struggle so much with knowing God, with loving the infinite being that somehow said He loved me as an individual. To be honest it just doesn't make sense. What I soon came to realize is that to love God I had to receive God's love. Kinda of a weird paradox but it honestly does take God's love to love God. The brilliant thing about God's love is that there is no end, you can keep diving farther and farther into the grandness of its never-ending depth. 
     It's such an amazing thing to not just feel but know the love of God. That love has the power to change people, to change nations, to change everything we know. It's a love that isn't based on feeling or knowledge but is based on the truth of reality. God is love. boom. So much wonder and power in that simple phrase. How often I went through life without a realization that the God of the universe loved me without reservation and with more love than I could ever handle. 
     Three months isn't a long period of time but in those three months I came to know some incredible people. People who were not satisfied with the Sunday morning Christianity but want the radical, wild, Christianity that permeates every moment of ever day. These people inspired me by the hunger and desire they had to seek God. I watched and grew with them as we dug deeper into this infinite God. I can't thank the people of this PhotogenX community enough for the impact they have had on my life. God has used them all to change my life. I saw what walking with God looked like by watching these incredible individuals walk with Him every day. I will never forget this community of people and the incredible journey we took these three months. 
     It was an incredible blessing to be here in Hawaii receiving for the last three months. A blessing that I owe so much of to all of you at home. Your prayers and support have helped make these past few months life changing. You have a share in the inheritance of everything God does through me because of your incredible generosity. Thank you. I am so blessed to know all of you. 
     I couldn't finish this wrap-up blog without thanking the number one person that deserves all the glory and praise for what has happened these last few months. God has walked step for step with me. The faithfulness of God has a whole new meaning to me now, it isn't just in the physical that God is faithful, it is in every emotion, every thought, every expression that God shows His faithfulness to us. I don't know what these next three months are going to hold for me. I can count on challenges and opportunities; on joy and pain; on times of fruit and times of desert; and in a God who will always love me no matter how much a mess up or struggle. A God who will be faithful through every step I take. A God who simply desires to be with His kids.
      So here I am on my way to Egypt for three months. There are no words to describe the excitement and anticipation I have for these next three months. Just to give an idea of what we will be doing there, for the first week we will work with various ministries to see which one God is calling us to work with. Ministries like: working in Garbage City, ministering in refugee camps, working with the poor, encouraging the Christians there, etc. So many amazing opportunities and options for us! God is going to do amazing things! I would really appreciate prayers as my team leaps into this adventure! Some things you can pray for are:
1. That in every situation we would seek to bring God glory first.
2. That our team would be based off of love and unity
3. That we would be as wise as serpents and as gentle as doves as we work in this Muslim nation.
4.  That we would find the right ministry to work with and our team would be unified in that decision.
5. That we would base our time there off of seeking God's will for our time there and not our own desires of what we want to do there.
6. That we would be bold and willing to be stretched. Always remembering that we are not doing this for ourselves but for God and the people of Egypt
7. That our photography would give a voice to the voiceless to Egypt