One of those days...

I'm having one of those days. The days where your sick, your discouraged, and life looks just a little bit impossible. One of those days where trusting in God is just about all you can manage. But thankfully that's enough. I've been so challenged by God in how I trust Him over the past few weeks. It seems like life keeps getting more and more crazy. For example, I am trying to save up for school and yet I keep losing hours at work. I'm learning that God has different ways to provide for us besides just working. He has to, otherwise there is no way I'm going to this school. I'm learning that despite all my shortcoming, my failures, and my weakness; God sees a heart that is struggling to follow him, and He has compassion on it. He knows my troubles, my fears, and my worries. He knows what I need and even what I desire. My life is an open book to Him and I just have to trust that He knows how to read it correctly.  I have to trust that sometimes life is going to be impossible for me, but that nothing is impossible for Him. It's been tough. I feel so helpless. So unable to change my situation. Yet, I know that God is faithful through it all. I trust that He will provide for all of my needs. All I can do now is walk through the doors he opens. This past week God opened up the opportunity for me to work a few more hours at my one job. It helped build my trust in Him. Even though it involved me having to do something, I could tell that it was God who orchestrated the opportunity. I think sometimes we ask God for things and then just expect them to happen. But sometimes God decides to just open the door and lets us decide whether we are going to walk through it or not.