One of those days...

I'm having one of those days. The days where your sick, your discouraged, and life looks just a little bit impossible. One of those days where trusting in God is just about all you can manage. But thankfully that's enough. I've been so challenged by God in how I trust Him over the past few weeks. It seems like life keeps getting more and more crazy. For example, I am trying to save up for school and yet I keep losing hours at work. I'm learning that God has different ways to provide for us besides just working. He has to, otherwise there is no way I'm going to this school. I'm learning that despite all my shortcoming, my failures, and my weakness; God sees a heart that is struggling to follow him, and He has compassion on it. He knows my troubles, my fears, and my worries. He knows what I need and even what I desire. My life is an open book to Him and I just have to trust that He knows how to read it correctly.  I have to trust that sometimes life is going to be impossible for me, but that nothing is impossible for Him. It's been tough. I feel so helpless. So unable to change my situation. Yet, I know that God is faithful through it all. I trust that He will provide for all of my needs. All I can do now is walk through the doors he opens. This past week God opened up the opportunity for me to work a few more hours at my one job. It helped build my trust in Him. Even though it involved me having to do something, I could tell that it was God who orchestrated the opportunity. I think sometimes we ask God for things and then just expect them to happen. But sometimes God decides to just open the door and lets us decide whether we are going to walk through it or not.

It's time to refocus..

Hey Everyone!
Just wanted to give a quick update! Lifes been pretty much the same crazy cycle since the last time I posted. I've officially gotten all the money I need for the lecture phase of my DTS (Such an awesome blessing!) and am now saving up for my outreach phase. I've really heard God speak over the past couple of weeks; and while its been an up and down journey, I've seen him provide in some awesome ways. It's interesting how God often decides to work in ways that, frankly, just seem a little crazy. For example, over the last month or so I have been losing hours at two of my jobs. Considering the fact that I've been trying to save up money for my DTS, it hasn't been the most encouraging thing in the world. A couple weeks ago I was really seeking God about the finances for this trip and about why I was suddenly loosing work. His answer was pretty simple I've taken away hours at your job, because you've forgotten who is going to provide the way for you to do this school: Me. In the next few weeks when you are not working you need to be growing spiritually with Me. Take the hours and jobs you can but when you find a free day or free time just spend time getting ready with me for this school. Trust that I can provide all your needs for this school. Even if it seems impossible. This really helped me to refocus. I can't, and don't want to, do this school on my own. I'm so excited to see how God is going to provide; both through working and through people who choose to partner with me in this exciting adventure! Well that's about all I've got for now! I'd appreciate any prayer I can get. Particularly that God would continue to guide me in the area of finances and that I would continue to seek his wisdom on how I need to prepare in the next few months. So here we go! (almost) Two months and counting! :D